Day 180... Lost the will!!

Im know a few people read my blog and have told me they are truly inspired, or how well I'm doing. But deep down, I know that after the first 2-3 months or so, I'm not happy. I worked hard at it for a while, and now I'm just finding excuses. So on Saturday for example, I had a Chinese. The positive is, I stopped when I realised I was full. The negative, I had Chinese!! I know that if I stuck to my guns and worked hard I would lose weight in no time. But I'm just not sticking to it. 

So if I'm remaining honest, I may as well continue. Yesterday I had left over Chinese for breakfast. Sounds weird to many people... You either love it or hate it!! It wasn't a plate full, just a small plate. Then I drank a few gin and tonics in the day, but stopped by the evening. More calories. I walked lots as I was at a festival. But I also had a hog roast roll for my lunch, and a small kebab when we got home. It's not massively unhealthy, despite thinking it is!! It had no chips, just salad and pitta bread. But it was late at night, so again I didn't want to weigh in this morning.

I don't want the negativity of a bad weigh-in. So I don't feel it would be worthwhile until Friday, when I can try to factor in a bad weekend with hopefully, a good week. 

Today I started off well. I had a yoghurt for breakfast, and green tea all day. I had grapes, a mini bagel with salmon and cream cheese, and a very mini falafel wrap for lunch. Pretty good. For dinner tonight I have lamb chops with salad. I'm also going to go out for a run, after dinner. And if I'm hungry later, which I shouldn't be, but if I am, I'll have a green tea and perhaps a belvita biscuit. So my aims are there. I'll be pleased if I can stick with it this week. I've got no major evening plans this week, so no reason to be unhealthy. If I'm 15 8 or 9 at the end of the week, ok. Above that in will be very disappointed. Below, I will be ecstatic.